To My Beloved Royalty...

I'm pretty sure most of my trans peeps can relate to this one.
Speak Out

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Allie
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Yup :3

Submitted April 8, 2013 at 4:14AM

Rachel Ann
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Absolutely.

What I wouldn't have given to be able to be Sarah's age when starting HRT. But even though it was decades later for me, the benefits were quite literally sanity saving. (And possibly life saving.)

It'll be interesting to see how Sarah reacts to this thunderbolt of a revelation.

Submitted April 8, 2013 at 7:28AM

Allie
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Yeah, same... well, to have started HRT at whatever age I actually started endogenous puberty anyway. So I wouldn't have had to go through so much as a day's masculinisation, but I imagine starting female puberty *too* much earlier wouldn't have been that much better than going through male puberty anyway, in the short term.

Submitted April 8, 2013 at 12:12PM

Rachel
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I had a curiously mixed reaction to puberty. Some of the changes, such as my voice and the little facial hair I got--didn't seem so bad at the time, because I didn't sound like a child anymore. (I hated my childhood and being a child). Only when I discovered that hormones couldn't reverse those changes did I come to curse them.

I *did* hate the way hormones made me look, however--my features became less delicate, my nose huge (or so it seemed to me). In other words, I felt that puberty made me ugly. When one considers I wanted SRS from the moment I heard about it at age 14, that revulsion makes sense now--I hated looking masculine and longed for my old, more delicate (and therefore, more feminine) features.

Submitted April 8, 2013 at 12:24PM

Allie
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My voice never actually entirely broke, just stood at halfway for years... ironically, you wouldn't believe how hard I willed it to break properly at the time LOL , cos I felt inadequate about it

Submitted April 8, 2013 at 2:19PM

Rachel
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Allie,

Oh, yes, I would believe it, because I willed it just as much, and actually tried to force my voice into the lower register. (It was naturally high, and a bit thin thanks to my CP, even after puberty). It's not something I feel comfortable saying to most people in the trans community, because I expect the response, "How can you say you're trans when you actually WANTED a male voice at puberty? You're not one of us! Begone with you, SIR!..."

But it makes perfect sense in retrospect. My pre-puberty voice, I thought, made me sound weak to potential bullies--and being disabled, I felt weak and helpless enough.

Submitted April 10, 2013 at 12:04AM

Allie
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Yeah, that HBS attitude really pisses me off. As if none of them were ever in denial? And of course you have to have been 100% self-conscious from birth. My reasons were similar to yours, and also that I felt like I wasn't "growing up" - gender just wasn't a factor.

Submitted April 10, 2013 at 6:31AM

Rachel Ann
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Puberty was a living hell for me. As a kid, I was positive beyond all doubt that puberty would fix me; that I'd follow the normal (and correct!) changes to finally make me a woman. (I'd already tried to hurry the change along when I was ten by attempting a DYI orchiectomy.) Instead, puberty made me shoot up to 6'1", give me broad shoulders and essentially make me ready to play front line on a football team. (Which I never did. Guys locker rooms were the physical version of a living hell for me. They still are.) It was less than a year into puberty that the suicide thoughts showed up and remained a constant companion for 25 years.

*sigh* We adjust as best we can and as best as life will allow.

Submitted April 10, 2013 at 6:48AM

Allie
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Yeah, my height was one thing I always hated too :/ 6'1 here

Submitted April 10, 2013 at 12:25PM

Allie
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I was taller and broader in the shoulders than most of the other kids even before puberty actually, and my mum and sister are really tall too, but I'd be perfectly fine being tall like them... not not quite so riveted about being taller than most cis guys LOL

Submitted April 10, 2013 at 12:28PM

Rachel
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I had the opposite problem. I started school at age eight, but in the second grade rather than third, because my mom didn't consider me ready for that grade. Therefore, I was a year older than everyone else, but on average about three inches shorter and stick-thin. I was so insecure about my size that I would make *weekly* trips to the nurse's office to get my height and weight checked. Add not being particularly masculine to being so small, and it's no surprise that I was a "bully magnet." I just wanted to be big enough to beat them up so they'd leave me alone....=(

I never got very tall, about 5'6", but do struggle with my weight due to using a wheelchair for twenty years. What I wouldn't give to be stick-thin again. I didn't know how good I had it.

Submitted April 10, 2013 at 5:18PM

Pinkbatmax

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I never got very tall, about 5'6", but do struggle with my weight due to using a wheelchair for twenty years. What I wouldn't give to be stick-thin again. I didn't know how good I had it.

I feel that pain. I've always been one of the tallest people in any room. I will say this, though..... it helped me get out of getting beat up a lot.

Submitted April 11, 2013 at 7:42PM

BP
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I had never considered this before reading this comic, and it really educated me. Thank you! Smile

Submitted August 12, 2017 at 10:38PM

Jane
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I hated my wrong puberty. If only I knew...

Submitted June 7, 2019 at 5:45AM

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